infuriated

I'm so pissed right now I can't even write or think straight. Pissed at everything. Yeah, I am/was on my period. It's so infuriating that men have this biological advantage over us. Don't have to bleed heavy blood clots through their flaccid knobs, don't have to feel bloated or gassy a week before this painful nonsense arrives, don't have to feel hot in the body, don't have to deal with fucking cramps in the legs and stomach, their moods don't swing like a never-ending hormonal roller coaster, and deal with suicidal thoughts every now and then. It's so fucking infuriating when I'm unable to go cycling during these days. Just as I was feeling good about completing a challenge I have to go through this shit painful 5/6 days. So infuriating. SO INFURIATING THAT I WANT TO SCREAM SO LOUDLY AND SMASH THINGS AND KILL THE PEOPLE WHO ANNOY THE FUCK OUT OF ME. 

I AM SOMEHOW UNABLE TO SUFFER THE SLIGHTEST BIT OF INCONVENIENCE OR INCOMPETENCE. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME. 

MY MIND IS ON FIRE RIGHT NOW BUT I CAN'T SAY THIS TO ANYONE BECAUSE IM IN OFFICE AND THERES A DECORUM TO MAINTAIN

AT HOME ALL MY ANGER GETS DIRECTED AT N WHO COMES IN THE FIRING LINE AND EXPECTS ME TO BE WARM AND GENTLE BECAUSE HE WORKS FROM HOME AND IS ALONE ALL THE TIME.. HOW SHOULD I DO THAT WHENMY MIND IS NOT ABLE TO THINK STRAIGHT OR FEEL ANYTHING AT ALL. HOW THE FUCK SHOULD I DO THAT. HOOOWWW??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? AT TIMES I FEEL LIKE JUST SLICING THE KNIFE RIGHT THROUGH MY THROAT OR STAB MYSELF TO DEATH OR BANG MY HEAD SO HARD ON WALL OR JUST JUMOP DOWN FROM THE TERRACE OR JUMP IN FRONT OF A FAST TRAIN OR JUST HAMMER MY HEAD MULTIPLE TIMES TILL THE BRAIN SMARSHES OUT. NOONE WILL FUCKINGG CARE. EVERYONE WILL MVE ON WITH THEIR FUCKING LIVES. I HATE HOW I HAVE T BEHAVE IWHT N BUT I CANT HELP IT. I JUST FUCKING CANT HELP MYSELG. I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH. I FUKING HATE MYSELF SO MUCHJ I WANT TO DIE 

PEOPLE DONT DO THEIR JOBS PROPERLY. NO ONE FUCKING HAS ANY INTEGRITY AND THEY GET AWAY WITH THIS KIND OF SHITTY BEHAVIOUR. IT'S SO ANNOYING THAT THEY FUCKING GET AWAY WITH IT. THERE IS NO KINDNESS ANYWHERE. NO INTEGRITY. THERE IS SO MUCH NOISE EVERYWHERE. NOBODY LISTENS. NOONE STICKS TO THEIR WORD.

YEAH IM ON MY PERIOD THAT IS WHY I AM YELLING.