sacrifice

How to choose between two things that are equally important to you? Last Saturday, I got a brand new ankle tatt, but had to stop cycling for a few days to protect my tattoo. Last month, too, I couldn't take part in the cyclothon because I got both my hands tatted. It broke my heart into ten thousand pieces when I couldn't take part in my first-ever cyclothon. 

It felt like I had to sacrifice my baby to Satan. I know this may sound a bit dramatic as an example, but that's how I felt. Anyway. I hope I will be able to gather that same momentum in a few days once I can get back to cycling. 

  

disappointed

That's how I'm feeling right now with everyone. Like, I can see their human side, and I can't help feeling disappointed in them. Why do I expect things from those who are incapable of being their true self and talk to you without any agenda? I never learn. 

The only life advice I think I ever got from my father was: Never expect anything from anyone. Never. 

That's it. Depressingly simple and straight, yet so difficult to follow. No matter how hard you try, you usually end up expecting things from people. Imagine how free you would feel if you actually followed this. 

People, including your family, friends, colleagues, people you think you are friends with, and everyone disappoints you at some time in life. It's like I have started being suspicious of every action one takes, and it's exhausting. You just have to live with it. It hurts like a madafaking splinter in your legs that can't be removed. Anyway. That's life. I think I need to deal with it or die.