should i?

i want to pull that trigger

and raze the ruins of 

what we had once built,

gave up, and left midway

 

i want to pull that trigger

and leave no evidence of

any of our memories - happy or sad

 

i want to pull that trigger

to release myself from that trap

where you're guarding the door 

to my present and now 

i want to pull that trigger

to end your existence 

in my veins

 

i want to pull that trigger

to end my eternal pain

i want to pull that trigger

to simply break free and die

 

should I?