Strangers, again

he was a stranger to me a decade ago
he is a stranger to me today
the years and moments in between
seemed like autumn leaves withering away


my eyes are no longer beautiful
my jokes are no longer funny 
my smile is no longer charming
and my presence is no longer sunny


i was a stranger to him a decade ago
i'm a stranger to him today
our toxic love in between which brought us closer
that same toxic love drove us away

Seventeen-year-old

he has turned me into a 17-year-old who yearns for his love, attention, gaze and appreciation

i think he has conjured some magic on me where i can't stop thinking and writing about him

i know this blog is turning into a rambling fest of my love-struck mind, but i don't care

i know this post has no poetry or rhyme, but i don't care

i know i sound stupid, irrelevant, incoherent in front of him sometimes, but i don't care

i know all my posts here are excessively soaked with adjectives and metaphors i bestow upon him, but i don't care

all i care about is the smile on his face and sparkle in his eyes when he corrects me

all i care about is how he turns me on with his intelligent comebacks

all i care about is how he cares for me and my wishes

all i care about is how he grounds me when i get carried away

all i care about is the space and independence he gives my gypsy soul

all i care about is how his presence has tamed the hurricane inside me

all i care about is how much i love him and how much he loves me

Sublime

his skin smells like
that cherished old book
whose pages hold the
journey we undertook

his kiss smells like
that morning sunshine
which brings in 
a rush of dopamine

although it feels 
too good to be true
i know deep down 
that our love is sublime

Thank you, 2017

for everything i learned
for several things i unlearned

for twirling me out of my comfort zone
for untwirling the walls of my own

for slapping me with harsh reality
for taming my mercurial insanity

for introducing me to new love
for the deep waters i dove

for all the enriching experiences you gave me
i thank you, 2017